Chapter 16: Until Death or Until I don't

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Chapter 15: Merry X-mas

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Chapter 14: And the Laughter is Gone

My hands are tied in a relationship made of right
Where wrong has no light
And I do everything in the perfect way
Coloring in the lines

Because you’re not sure
If the living is a lie
Or if you’ll end up lonely when you die
The doors are all locked

When you have to choose
Between time and laughter
Take your happiness now or later
It’s hard to know

That one day you’ll be unable to grow
And that your chances
Have all gone by
And you can blame the dream

They told you when you were young
That this is right and wrong
Regardless of if you’re dead inside
And the laughter is gone

Chapter 13: Yes, No, Maybe So

Either you do or you don't. And while you don't want to obviously commit political assassination, you can't play coy and dub yourself the King of Change. You are either FOR gay marriage or you're NOT. It's really not that difficult a stance to take.

You either believe everyone has the right to marriage or you believe that marriage is defined by some moral or religious code. I guess maybe I'm not seeing the correct picture?

President-elect Obama sent his VP pick Joe Biden up on a National Television platform to state to the entire world:

First statement: "The fact of the matter is that under the Constitution we should be granted – same-sex couples should be able to have visitation rights in hospitals, joint ownership of property, life insurance policies, etc. that’s only fair. It’s what the Constitution calls for. And so we do support it. We do support making sure that committed couples in a same-sex marriage are guaranteed the same constitutional benefits as it relates to their property rights, their rights of visitation, their rights to insurance, their rights to ownership as heterosexual couples do."

Second statement: "No. Neither Barack Obama nor I support redefining from a civil side what constitutes marriage. We do not support that."

How do you support equal rights and not support redefining from a civil side something that would validate those equal rights? It's what makes the most sense. I don't think you can say "I only agree people should have rights under certain definitions and conditions"

Then Obama goes on record saying: "I believe marriage is between a man and a woman. I am not in favor of gay marriage. But when you start playing around with constitutions, just to prohibit somebody who cares about another person, it just seems to me that's not what America's about. Usually, our constitutions expand liberties, they don't contract them."

So he states that he's not for gay marriage and yet he tries to cover it with, but if there is gay marriage, let us not stir any hornet's nests shall we? What is this? Is that him trying to throw the gay community a bone? Let us have a few states and call it even?

I know he's trying to stabilize the nation and not draw lines in the sand however there are some fences you just simply can not ride. You have to eventually come down on one side or the other. I hope he finally decides to grow a pair and make a stand.

People say that the President holds no power over constitutional amendments and state laws etc. But a leader of a nation can be the voice of a movement or idea and can influence the media and popular belief. They just have to be brave enough to be hated for a little while...

Chapter 12: If You're Gay and You Know It

Yes, if you're gay and you know it, clap your hands
If you're happy and you know it, slap yourself for voting for someone who doesn't believe you deserve to be happy!

So yes, Obama was probably the lesser of two evils. He was the champion savior of our nation!! He's going to be the glue that puts our nation back together! He's the second coming! Of course, anyone would seem that way after eight years of Bush.

What completely drives me insane is hearing the fellow gay community stand in outrage about Prop 8 and the lackluster movement for equal rights of homosexuals. You practically carried in Obama into office on a platter of gold, frankincense and mirth! He made absolutely no move to stand up for gay rights. His VP pick outright said that they don't believe that gays should have the right to marriage.

Yet you laud him? He chooses pastor Rick Warren to deliver the invocation at the presidential inauguration. This is someone who has made a clear deliverance on his beliefs about gay marriage and abortion rights. There had to have been other choices and clearly he's picked the voice of the majority. People make excuses for him left and right, saying Obama tries to choose middle ground to pull everyone together and therefore he's allowed to turn his back on certain issues.

I say, the easiest way to be popular is to not fight anyone and agree with everyone and stand up for nothing. It's those who aren't afraid to be hated and loathed who are willing to fight.

So yes, I'm laughing at all of the Obama fanatic gay rights activists who thought somehow once he was elected, he'd see the light and decide equal rights for gays was something he'd magically put on his agenda.

And that's what happens when you settle. So now we wait quietly until a voice emerges that is our own.

If you're gay and you know it, shame on you for voting for someone who doesn't have the balls to believe you deserve to be happy.